Grand Re-Bloggening

Wow.  It's been a year since I tried to start this blog.  Lately I've been feeling bad about the way my life has been stagnating.  I started this blog over a year ago with the same feelings so...  I guess I haven't made any progress.  But I'm ready to try again.  Family, friends, and even people I don't really like have all been telling me pretty much the same thing lately.  I shouldn't let my failures get me down.  I just need to get up and try harder this time.  Persevere.  I'm dusting off this blog for my own personal accountability and motivation.

So, what's my game-plan for becoming a better me?

1. Faith
2. Health
3. Wealth
4. Fulfillment

First I need to improve my spiritual life.  My relationship with God and my time to reflect on myself and my own actions.  This blog is part of that process.  Strengthening my spirit with God's promises will help me to restore faith in myself as well.  That's what I believe.

Then I need to focus on my health.  My sleep habits, my eating habits, my exercise habits, my cleaning habits... I'm a mess really.  I can't expect to make any progress in my career or other parts of my life if I can't even take care of myself.  This statement bums me out sometimes and other times it inspires me.  It gives me a realistic goal to reach.  I can't save the world in a week, but I can clean my apartment, go to the gym, check my budget, etc.

Next is wealth.  I don't need to be fabulously wealthy, but let's be real.  Money is important.  There are plenty of more important things, but being able to have a stable income and pay all the bills is good for happiness.  However, I have decided that I don't want to rely on someone else to pay me.  I do, currently, but I don't like it.  I want to make my own cash and my own destiny.  Again, I need to start small though.  I keep going back to the ideal of crafts lately.  I'm not an artist.  Not a good one anyway.  Although I do enjoy expressing myself in art, its very stress-relieving.  What I am good at is writing computer code.  I've toyed around with, talked big about, and generally did nothing with video-game design.  I think I struggle with it's contribution to society.  I'm now resolved that I don't want to make video-games because I want to make a career out of it.  I want to make them because I enjoy the process and I think I can make money on it.

Fulfillment is my way of saying "what I want to grow up to be."  I have many things I'd like to do with my life right now.  Most of them are pretty weird, but hey I'm a little out there sometimes.  I've been writing this for a while now so I think I'll go into the details later.

I'm restarting my journey to self-improvement and it feels good to be writing again.  I missed you blog.